chapter 6,7&8 oh sam..

Well, I didn´t write for a while because so much
happend and I don´t know how I should discribe my
feelings about Sam. First I thought we loved each other
..but now? I really don´t know,because I think
he doesn´t love me anymore and I was just a
"toy" for him. When we met to buy a
pregnancy test we did not have enough money and so I had to
go back and take money from home,but when I came back Sam
wasn´t there anymore...first I thought he just went to
the toilet or sat down on a bench nearby,but that
wasn´t right..I waited for him over 30 minuites but he
was lost. In this moment I was so alone I felt very sad
and was so disappointed ,I was so angry, I
can´t discribe it.Can you imagine how it feels? I
really trust Sam and now this shit..I thought this
little bastard run away and let me alone..I started
crying but after I stopped crying I bought this
pregnancy test..But on the next day I heard that Sam had
ran away from home and then I was really scared and in this moment I felt that I love him and want
to cope WITH him...but we have to talk..URGENTLY

see you soon .

Alicia xxx

Chapter 5 - What will happend in my futur?!

OH NO!! I have got a big problem. I don´t know how I can tell you...heeeelp me please!

Aaaaaarrghhh :/ I AM PREGNANT!.. what shall I do now? I don´t want to have a baby..not yet. But I can´t kill it . Will it be a boy or a girl? I still LOVE Sam. But he DOESN´T love me anymore and thats the big problem. I think I have to talk to somebody... NO... I KNOW. But to who?

First I thought that I should talk to Sams mum,because I like her and she know everthing about the situtuation,but if I tell her that I am pregnant, she will know this secret..and Sam and me will get into very big troubles..

OH NO...I think I would regret if I ´d destroy my carrer with this baby.... I NEED TIME... :/

xxx Alicia! :/

Chapter 4 - Something is wrong..

Hmm,...something is wrong. I really love him but I think he doesn´t love me anymore.I don´t know.Maybe he thinks that if we were just friends it would be the best soultion.. but I still want to be his girlfriend.We aren´t spilt up or anything else.And we often do stuff together,..but we only watch tv and stay in my room.in The last few days he hasnt been here very often and he didn´t contact me for 2 days in a series..And I think if I wuldnt talk to him and invite him to lunch with my family we wouldn´t have any contact...well first I was very happy to see him again and I thought it was all great....whatever..it wasn´t :( he seemed to be very bored of me ..and thats a horrible feeling.. I am scared that I did somtheing wrong but I don´t know waht and I don´t want to talk to him because,I am scared that he will break up ..what should I do? Can anybody help me?

xxx Alicia! :)

Chapter 3 - I love him so much!

wow! Sam is such a nice guy,he is friendly and he ALWAYS takes care of me. The time we spend together is awesome. He´s the best boyfriend I´ve ever had. He is the one and only boy for me.I love him so much.When we were in Clissola Park I was so excited,because I told him that I love him.I never told somebody that I love him before,because normally I just like having fun,but this time Its different.I´m sure he is the love of my life.. I know we are still teenagers but i ve got a great feeling!

I like him,his friends and his mum,too..but I don´t know if she likes me because Sam and I always are together and I guess she wants that Sam more do for school,or anything else.Precisely because we are together nearly every day,and I love this time.I enjoy it very much.I need him.I need his laugh.I need everthing of him. :P

xxx Alicia! :)