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P.S.:

Here is the link which was playing at the birth of my little sunshine..
oh no.. of our little sunshine ;)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYQGgl-quVg&feature=related


Alicia & Sam:) xxx

The end =)

Hey =)

I think it will be the last blog,because I think it doesn´t make sense to write more,..
Sam and me split up definitely.. but it´s okay,..yes one could say I am happy with this solution.

I´ve git an new boyfriend and he has got a new girlfriend and she´s pretty cute =)

now we are best friends .. and I guess for Roof is it brilliant,too..

I don´t want to write more.. this is my life and I want my privacy now ;)

Alicia xxx :):))

and thanks for reading :) ♥

Chapter 18 - oh no..another row.. :S

Oh no.. It happend again and I think it will happend again and again for many times.. hmm whatever we had another row yesterday evening. Since he moved out it was more exhaustings than with his assistance.Tahts the reason because I need and want to have time only for me,and as Sam came around and wanted to talk to me.But I was in the bathroom when Sam came and so I was nerved yet when he knocked at the door.. I hate it when somebody bother me..then I can go off.. aaahhh ;D
And the turning point was that he told me that he prefer to do other things than look at me.. That was to much for me. Does that mean that Sam has got another girlfriend and doesn´t want to be in conctact anymore? What will happen with Roof?... These and 1000 other questions were in my mind in this moment.I was so angry and so I shouted at him called him stupid names..:/
I impended him that he´ll never see Roof again when he cheat me..and because I shouted and didn´t talk normal my mum heard it and came apstairs to see what is wrong. She took us by her side and said we should talk to eachother but not scream. As Sam told me something about his feeling adverse to Roof. He is scared of loose the contact to him,..That made me very happy and proud :)
So I had to apologize me to him for beeing unfair.. ;) It was my misstake..

But I have to look after Roof now.. byebye
Alicia.. xxx

Chapter 17 - Is something wrong?

hiii :)

Everything has changed a lot..

It was really strange and bizarre to see Sams father Dave. Due to the fact that Dave never took care of Sam I was really impressed or better to say surprised when Sam told me that his dad wanted to dine with Roof and Sam..

Then Sam got a cold and it was really annoying to hear his coughing and sneezing the whole night. It was horrible.It was the start of a new part of our life. We both knew that we wanted to move out but never talked about this issue because..hmm I don´t know.. it´s just a weird topic.. you know ;)
besides I don´t want to live alone with Sam in our house but I don´t want to constrain him..So we decided that it will be the best that he moves to his mum at first so he can get well soon. we however also discussed that he will come back when he isn´t that ill anymore.. :)
I am sure he is going to come back and will support me again.But we will see .. :S

Alicia xxx

Chapter 16 - good or bad?

First I want to say: Living without Roof is impossible..
Roof is the most important part of my life and I can´t imagine to be without him..and Sam,too ;) Now,I live in a perfect world,but sometimes I wish I would get more sleep..Sometimes it strains me..Over the day it isn´t so hard like during the night because over the day my parents,or Sam's parents can help us..but during the night its really hard work. Sam and me are trying to change our "night shifts" but Sam often doesn´t hear when Roof is crying..Then I have to wake him up.. But after the 3th rippedblow he woke up and stayed with Roof;)
Every morning I am alone with Rufus,because he is still going to school and doing something for his education and normaly he´s pretty good at school and never has troubles or something like that and so I was really surprised when he came home one day and told me that he had had a fight with a guy who claimed that he is the father of Sam.. I knew in an instant who this must have been. It surely was my exboyfriend Jason..Now I really hate him..

But I´m sure you want to know why they had a fight.Well he met Jason at school and I don´t know why but he talked to him..But during this dialogue,suddenly Jason claimed that he is the real father of Roof and Sam is just the .. hmm I don´t know what he would be..And the worst thing was that Sam believed in this stuff.I was really surprised because when you think about this damn story..Sam told me that Jason told him I already was pregnant when Sam and I had sex with eachother.I was shocked!!! He really believes that I would lie to him?? In this moment I nearly went crazy.When I think back to this day I still could go insane.. aaaaaaaarrghh...okay, I am going on now ;) I couldn´t believe that he trusts some stupid guy more than me .. Well.. I calculated with him the time of the day when Roof was born and when I split up with Jason and so on.. So I could assure himself of beeing the biological father. He believed me but I also know that he hoped that Jasons story was true and he could go back to his mum and live with her because deep inside we both know that he'd prefer living with her instead of me.After the row we hugged and kissed eachother and it was brilliant. I was a blessing in disguise =)=)

Alicia xxx