Chapter 16 - good or bad?

First I want to say: Living without Roof is impossible..
Roof is the most important part of my life and I can´t imagine to be without him..and Sam,too ;) Now,I live in a perfect world,but sometimes I wish I would get more sleep..Sometimes it strains me..Over the day it isn´t so hard like during the night because over the day my parents,or Sam's parents can help us..but during the night its really hard work. Sam and me are trying to change our "night shifts" but Sam often doesn´t hear when Roof is crying..Then I have to wake him up.. But after the 3th rippedblow he woke up and stayed with Roof;)
Every morning I am alone with Rufus,because he is still going to school and doing something for his education and normaly he´s pretty good at school and never has troubles or something like that and so I was really surprised when he came home one day and told me that he had had a fight with a guy who claimed that he is the father of Sam.. I knew in an instant who this must have been. It surely was my exboyfriend Jason..Now I really hate him..

But I´m sure you want to know why they had a fight.Well he met Jason at school and I don´t know why but he talked to him..But during this dialogue,suddenly Jason claimed that he is the real father of Roof and Sam is just the .. hmm I don´t know what he would be..And the worst thing was that Sam believed in this stuff.I was really surprised because when you think about this damn story..Sam told me that Jason told him I already was pregnant when Sam and I had sex with eachother.I was shocked!!! He really believes that I would lie to him?? In this moment I nearly went crazy.When I think back to this day I still could go insane.. aaaaaaaarrghh...okay, I am going on now ;) I couldn´t believe that he trusts some stupid guy more than me .. Well.. I calculated with him the time of the day when Roof was born and when I split up with Jason and so on.. So I could assure himself of beeing the biological father. He believed me but I also know that he hoped that Jasons story was true and he could go back to his mum and live with her because deep inside we both know that he'd prefer living with her instead of me.After the row we hugged and kissed eachother and it was brilliant. I was a blessing in disguise =)=)

Alicia xxx