Chapter 10&11- thoughts

IMPORTANT IMPORTANT IMPORTANT!!!

here´s my first scan of the unborn child..Isn´t it great? okay I can imagine that it isn´t so interesting to see a little "something" and espacially when you can´t discover what you should see.. ;)



Now that my parents know that I am pregnant I feel better and glad that they support me. After we had informed our parents we went to the doctors. I was very excited!! The doctor did a sonogram of my baby. I really wanted to know if it was going to be a boy or a girl... Sam on the other hand did not really care, but they told us that it was going to be a boy.
We did not have any body contact for a long time because he went away to Hastings but on the way back from the scan Sam and I kissed. It was awesome! (: However it was different than before.
A few days later we went to an antenatal class which was very exciting! First we had to introduce ourselves to the rest but Sam was very shy. I wasn't.
I was so glad to be amongst other pregnant women and express my feelings. While we were sitting on the floor we had to make a list with our expectations of the pregnancy and after the baby is born. After that the men and women were seperated into two groups and I heard that the boys had said that they were expecting that they would not get enough sleep when the baby is born.

I also had to write a list:

-more responsibility
-living my own life
-a big challenge
-exhausting moments but also joyfull experiences
-a new focus of life
-baby parties
-a new home
-less sleep
-satisfaction
-anxiety
-poverty
-love
-love
-love!
-many fights with Sam
-a cute baby(;
-suprising moments
-happy mummy feelings
-presents
-vomiting
-sickness
-kisses & hugs xoxoxox

...but I really like that my parents and Sam get on so well with each other!!
However they still want me to do a abortion and i think Sam wants that too. I want to keep my baby!
I know have to go urgently!!! quick!!! i have to vomit!! :O

Alicia

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Chapter 9 - Should I keep the baby?

Will I be so fat,too? And what is with my model career?

Hello to everybody!!

I NEED AID!IMPORTANT! I NEED AID! IMPORTANT!!!

Damn! I´ve got a big problem.First I thought it´s just a bad dream or a big missunderstanding,now I know it isn´t.. After I did the pregnancy test I had a lot of time to think about the whole stuff..I thought about an abortion or to keep the baby.Earlier I always said I wouldn´t keep the baby because you destroy your life and the life of the baby at this age but now I guess it´s another situation,now its my desicion and I have to find a solution and I can promise,it´s very hard.You can´t imagine how I feel,because I really want to finish my school,have a good education,earn a lot of money,get married,have a big house and THEN get a baby or 2.. But now I am sixteen years old and I can´t give a lot to my baby apart from love..yes I know it would be hard and difficult because I have to take the responsibility for another real person.But this is the reason for my disicion to keep the baby,because it is a real person and even now I love it and I know I´ll manage and many other people have done it before and it works. I`LL KEEP THE BABY!


Alicia:) xxx